Engaged at long last

I am officially engaged! Isnt' that splendid? Not that we weren't before I got the ring, but now it feels really offical. Not to mention that it's SO much fun! I love it! LOL. He took me up the bluff and had me look through binocular... which I was suspicious anyway, and then we wandered over to the part of the bluff where you can see the old barn on the island. I saw the white on the roof of the barn and said so, and he was all irritated ( not seriously) that I saw it before I looked through the binoculars. Anyway, he had white washed will you marry me on it and it was very sweet and I have me beautiful ring now. And we get married in less then nine weeks!!!! YES!!! And we're going to Puerto Vallarta for our honeymoon! Oh so much fun! Life is good..

Waiting..............

I hate waiting! But it is SOOO good for me! Well, Bill is finally home so we will get to talk to him tonight about maybe, possibly getting married in August. August 26th to be exact, which coincidentally is also my Uncle & Aunts anniversary. I am really very ready to have a date. An end as it were to the whole walking it out situation. This last month has been so good and so what God wanted from us and I am REALLY glad that is happened. I am just ready for the next step. But like the visions said, we have to wait until God says ok, take the next step. But I CAN'T WAIT TO GET MARRIED!!!!!! Sorry I just had to get that out. But all in good time. And for all of you who are saying "oh just wait until you've been married for a while." You don't need to warn me of all the problems and hardships of marriage. I know I don't have a clue, but I am willing to find out and my experience shall not be the same as yours. Everyone is different with their own special set of troubles. But by golly I know that is will be good and we'll have fun along with all the other things that happen. He's the guy I want to marry and I'm the girl he's picked out, and we have words from God confirming that it's right. I think that's enough. Plus the support of the body, which is also very important to me. If everyone where shouting no, no don't do it. I hope I would listen and not push something through. But that is not the case, thank God. Anyway, I must dash. Ta

Visions

For all of you who know what this means, these are the visions that we received to get married. I was personally very encouraged by them. As of yet, no date, but it will be the right time when it's set. And we'll let you all know. (That is if you are someone who should know, you'll know;) )
For all of you who don't know what this means, that's ok. You really don't need to. Though if you want me to explain it to you, I'll be happy to.
Here they are.
I saw this Couple walking in a grassy place. There were deep cavities hidden in the earth. They seemed to be aware of the condition of the place where they walked. Each step they took required a knowing that they would stand on solid ground. Time passed, they were coming to the end of that treacherous place. Beyond it, they could see the path they were to take. In their zeal to get to it, they wanted to hurry, but they would not. They kept their focus on the accuracy of each step. As the vision ended, this Couple was on the solid path. They moved forward with firm direction to fulfill what they were sent to do. The atmosphere around them was that of peace and unwavering commitment. -Irene Conrad


I saw a couple and they were working in a field; but I saw that each time the weather would get bad, they would leave their work and go inside. Consequently, in the field they were working on, the planting fell behind because the couple kept leaving their work. Then I saw that the man began to study the area where they were and he realized that this was an area where there would always be stormy weather; but at least the couple could work the field until the weather got really bad. I then saw the couple get in the field and they stayed at their work even when the weather looked bad and even when the weather got very bad, they were responsible enough to cover the plants against the bad weather. As the vision ended, I knew that if this couple stuck to the work they were doing, they would have a beautiful harvest. -Donna Gomez


These two were trying to come into agreement about buying a new home, but each one had specific ideas of what they wanted in a home and they weren=t able to find something that had everything in it BB according to the two ways of thinking. Then the Lord told them they would never find something already built to fulfill their needs as a couple. He told them he wanted them to build their home BB just the two of them. Not only that, but He had the plans and they were to build it exactly how the plans were laid out. But before even that was started, the land had to be cleared and all the brush and weeds burned out. Then they would start with the foundation.
They were not shown the plans in their entirety, but only a step at a time. They would finish that one area and then the Lord would show them what next to be completed. They trusted the Lord==s leading, but that didn=t make the way any easier. There were difficulties along the way BB each one had their way and their say in how things should be carried out, but they found coming into agreement exciting, as one would give up more of themselves for the other through different circumstances.
The foundation was laid - the walls went up - and the roof was attached! Then the Lord told them that it was now up to them to finish the inside and the landscaping. He said they were ready to do that part because of the oneness they had accomplished in carrying out His plan for the foundation, walls, and roof. They were honored that He was putting His trust in them to complete their home. -Jannis Blohm

There you have it. Any comments are great.

Dear God in Heaven

Ok, well right now I am pissed off. And I am having a really hard time not marching into a room and telling a certain woman that she's a witch from shaol and she needs to get onto her broom and fly away. Wow, I really, really, really have a hard time with people who are nasty to little kids and act like everyone else's kids are horrible and hers are fine. Wow, ok, there is a little bit of a rant. But I just had to yell it out because I am most tempted to be nasty directly to her, which I feel is just not the right response.
I am in fact waiting for Dan to come and get me and wisk me away. We are in fact allowed to go out to Rainbow lake with a bunch of other people. Well not a bunch but several others anyway. It's really incredable that we're able to go. But it should be a good time, if he ever gets here.
Well time to sign off.

Well Let's reflect

I had a wonderful talk with Steven yesterday. Thank God for good friends. Life would not be half as rich without friends. We talked about a wide variety of things. One of the things I still struggle with is trusting. I will trust. It's really something that takes sowing continually. Anyway, just a thought. I want this month to be OVER!!! AND I want a VACATION!!!!!!! Seriously. I would LOVE to spend three weeks doing nothing. Laying on the beach, tanning myself to darkness! Sounds splended!
Ok that's enough of that.
Ta

Merry Valentine's Day

We had SUCH a fun time last night! I have to write about it because it was so funny..
We came home from dinner and decided to make valentines day cards for each other. Then after completely that, we ate pizza and played slap-jack. I haven't laughed so hard in a while.. even though we both sustained injuries, it was just the funnest! By the end of the night we were tired from laughing so hard and being a wee bit violent in the attempt to "slap" first. It was great!

A lovely day

It's February... a year ago yesterday I broke up with Dan.. hmm funny to think how much has changed since then. Hard thing to do, but definitely the right thing.. Wednesday we had a great service. We worshipped then prophesied for about an hour or so, then worshipped again. It's always so uplifting to be part of services like that. Especially if you enter in to what is happening..
In other news, I moved into the school, which is great! I am living with Kylie, and our room is very nice. We both have similar taste in colors, etc and it looks really good together. Hopefully the next time I move, it will be in with Dan. There's a thought. I have moved ten times in the last 6 and half years. There's another thought. I am altogether tired of moving. And the more people tell me that "you're not off so bad, so and so had to move this many times" makes me all the more cranky about it. Oh well. It will end some day. At least it will get less after I have ten kids. Wait, I'm not going to have ten kids, so oh well.
Ok, well I am all done doing this, so a cheerful hello to all if any of you who read this.

AH HA

Poor Dan.. he had a bad day yesterday, and a hard day today. So sad... oh well. But I on the other hand am perfect.. ok so that's not entirely true. I do get to run tonight which I am not looking forward too. But that's fine as well. It's good to run. I am really glad that I've trained myself to exercise. Ok, I just saw something so disturbing!!!! Now we get to enjoy a lesbian romance, after the first major love story of gay cowboys. Yahoo... we live in such a sick and terrible world. Honestly... it's become normal to be a nasty individual.. fine to tell our kids that Daddy and Daddy is good and normal.. Lord come quickly. It's a terrible thing to see the decline of society.
But there is hope at least. And I refuse to ever except the perversity as normal and ok... or become immune to it. I always want to feel the disgust and nastiness!!!
Ok, well I must go. Ta

I've Not Gone Far

That statement is not ment to suggest that things are boring at this time in my life. In face things are very interesting. We just had convention. Wow. All I can say is wow. It was so good. Every speaker had an anointed word, and every worship service was really good. The word that is ringing in my ears was John B. In fact I think most everyone is still thinking about it. It was such the grace of God for me to hear that word. Sometimes you feel like you're drifting and losing the vision that you had. And then you get a trumpet call loud and clear reminding you what you saw and what your calling is.
It was so good and I'm going to listen to it again. And read Esther. It's so true though, that unless the spirit inspires you, you don't understand.
Anyway, I thought that for all and any of the readers out there, that I should really blog again.
But really I like my journal better. People can't get offended by what i write in there and it's a lot safer. But that's fine too. I'll just keep the fun stories and breif thoughts for this.

Interesting times

We live in interesting times. There that is the statement of the day. Besides being mocked at my place of work, all things are good. Except that Danny is still at SM. But tomorrow night he returns and I will rush up to him and say hi and smile. A wee bit of an anti-climax, but that what happens when you walk it out. I had a very good conversation with Jinni yesterday and got very excited. YEAH! I will not elaborate. So there. What I am really excited about right now, is that we have a marvalous new copier/scanner/printer/fax/flying machine. It works beautifully! I loff it! Oh and Amy will be home soon which is another very good thing. Anyway, what the hey, I need to go, tata.

Wow

Well, there's never a moments rest. My office is still in turmoil and I can't handle it another second! I know it's a good cause, but fans in my ears and my papers flying about my desk as well as drywall dust and paint dripping all over my things and myself. I am so annoyed. It's ok though. I will calm down and go take a shower. Other then that my life is good. Dan is going to sm, that happens every now and then. Oh well. Other then that, the road is out and I am tired. Happy happy. I have to leave now, so I'll be cheerful some other time.

My life in turmoil

Ok, not my life, but my office, which in some ways is the same thing. Oh by the way has anyone bothered to look at the moon recently? It has been totally breath-taking the last couple of mornings as I struggled up the hill to breakfast. It is such a difficult thing to awake in the morning! Maybe my body simply needs more rest. But then again, I wouldn't be able to spend as much time with people if I went to bed. hmmm such a descission. I am pleased to announce that I have survived two days of work in the construction zone that is my office. Though I got dusted severly with drywall dust! It is such an irritation to have a coating of dirt all over your office.. and everything in it including papers and yourself. But that's fine. It's worth it, to have a new and improved office.
All for now, I had a funny story to write in here, but then I completely forgot it, so such is life. Maybe I'll remember it.
Probably not.

A short story

I was walking up to the tab and saw Bonny (the dog) trotting toward me. She had a leg in her mouth.. I think it was a cow leg, but who knows? I offered her my biscotti because I no longer desired to eat it. She accepted, dropping her leg and taking the biscotti to the side of the road to eat it in piece. I walked on, not thinking anymore about her. However, halfway up the hill, she began to bark after me. I turned and she came trotting toward me again, having left her leg in the middle of the road where she dropped it. She caught up and gave me a sniff to be sure I didn't have any other food stuff about me person, then continued on in front of me, barking a warning that I was coming. She did this all the way to the Cedar House. I thought it mildley amusing so I decided to immortalise it as it were, here on my blog... And there you have it. A short story.

Hell and more hell

Ouch! Pain and shaking etc. The last two days have been entirely horrible.... I think that I am in a test...:) In fact I know it, and I want to pass it and come out better on the other side. I won't go into details. I really need to get through this. Hopefully tonight, I'll be able to have the conversation that will resolve all of this. Lord help... I need you right quick.

Ode to Dan

This is dedicated to dan. Mostly because he's awesome, but specifically because he took care of me recently in my convelesence... I got very ill early one morning and threw up. My beloved, after doing barn, (those of you who know anything about milking cows, know that this involves getting up very early.4:30) and found out that I was sick, so he covered making breakfast at six, after coming in from barn, then when all that was all done,he came down the shop with Gingerale, and crackers and said very nice things to me and promised he'd come back later. It was so cool to wake up and see him walk through the door. It was very dark in the room, so I could only see his outline, but I knew it was him right away. Then he came back at 11:30 and took care of me the rest of the day. Not letting me get anything and helping as much as he could. He even read to me for like four hours. What a great guy! I know now more then ever that I want to marry him. Everyone was saying how sweet he was etc.. GRIN!!! !I love it! He's simply the best!

Off the ends off the earth

For all of you who thought that I had fallen off the ends of the earth, I did, it was great!.. Ok, so no, I was only sick for a couple of days, which sucks! There is a horrible bug going around that causes normally sturdy folk to wretch out there insides... It's quite disgusting.. anyway, despite being of a strong constitution, I got the nasty sickness. All that said, I hope everyone is well and polkie, I didn't even know you were leaving until you had left! I mean hello??? I hope you have a great trip! Love ya... Boji, let me know what happens in your life, I love ya tons... And Danny.. ha! I small triumph for Janelle! I am petty and nasty and I neet to be prayed for, but I am SO glad that he's mine and not that other persons! hhehehehehehh.. all of you close friends know whom I am refering too.... I'll give you some details in a less public forem if you want.. Love to all

A quickie

This is going to be very short because I am at work and I should be.... you know, working.. Anyway, I didn't want to keep neglecting this because I tend to allow myself to totally digress when it comes to writing things down. I did actually write in my journal the other night. Very impressive, it's been a long time. And I even wrote fun things. I wrote down a bunch of funny times that Dan and I had this last summer. It was good to remember things and laugh and chuckle. I also got to talk to Boj today. YEAH!!!! I miss her bunches and really hope that she's ok. Ok, this just in, I just saw a man (who is insane) riding in his little model t or whatever the heck it is, convertable, yes a convertable in the WINTER of ALASKA!!!! drive by the window! He must be completely freezing! Honestly, it's like 15 below out there! I can't even fathom riding in an open-top car in the winter.. i mean it's hardly warm enough in the summer months. Ok, sorry my shock got the better of me. Anyhoo, that's really all I am going to write about. Oh that and I won chinese checkers last night! yeah for me! (Dan always wins everything!)

AHHHHHHHHHHKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!

That was the sound I made yesterday when Johnny P jumped out from behind the parts shelf with a deafening yell, and scarred the crap out of me. The worst thing about it, was that it was a combined effort of Seth, Aaron and Johnny. Aaron was pretending to work behind my desk, just lying in wait to video the scare, and then Seth and Johnny snuck up the aisle. It really was very effective and I nearly had a heart attack. Then I went downstairs a while later, and johnny scared me again. It was just so wrong... It didn't help that the fire alarm had been going off randomly all day and my nerves were shot. Not very pleasant really. It was terrific.. such a funny word. So anyhoo, then we had an awesome service, with worship and prophesying and prayer. Very good and very powerful. I shall return to work now.

Let's see if this works

These are more fun pics from the island thing... Boj, you look great!!!!

What an upheaval

I decided that if I'm going to be able to fight properly, I need to have the right tools to fight. So in that course of action in mind, I have been listening to word non stop, and trying to change the way I think. I think it was Emerson who said that we become and act out on what is in our minds. Which is so true. Anyway, it's been really good. I listen to the Jane tapes yesterday as well as Tony Cardenas, and some of Frank Lopez. All was really good. The Jane story was very intense of course, and it's so cool to know the end of the matter. I love that she overcame the rest of her life and was never run by devils again.
Danny is back, yeah hurray, which is great, and so are Seth and Rebecca, which of course is wonderful. All in all, I am tired, but doing pretty well.